04/11/21 [deleted]

In the gaps between trains
I love you.
I don’t want to be alone.
Please love me.
I don’t want to be alone.

10/11/21

Starved,
We made a meal of it.

Ravenously devoured.

Left debris in the kitchen sink.

Thanked god
For the sustenance.

Soggy remnants unappetising.

Washing up.

09/11/21

Knowing I’ve aged
When a good day
Is a short walk,
A hot drink
And a home-made meal.
Perfectly content
In simple things
For one.

08/11/21

Googling:
“Why don’t we do the things that are good for us”.
Realising
The brain may not know what it needs
But the body always does.

07/11/21

Knowing I need more
Of the time I spend with me.
Still moments,
Hot tea.
Quiet in the noise.
Remember who you want to be.

06/11/21

Watching you shrink
Into shoes you no longer do up,
Loose hems that graze the floor;
Crumpled polyester.
Seeing you deflate,
Softly wheezing final breaths.

05/11/21

Expended so much effort in forgiveness
Forgetting to forgive myself.
Still learning.

Gosh–
Have I always been this beautiful?
I suppose I love me too.

04/11/21

Urging myself sober.
Twenty-three minutes
(Eyes closing)
In the station you’d chaperone me to.
There’s no romance in the heartbreak
(I love you).
It was always more fun with you.

03/11/21

Respectfully,
In my professional opinion,
And with all due respect,

Suck it.

With best intentions,
And in the spirit of collaboration,
No offence.

Kindest Regards.

02/11/21

How novel to be changed for the better
How fortunate to have known you
How inevitable to be disappointed
By a man with such small hands